Story of "Annie"

‘Annie’ is not her real name, but the story is true as told by Virgie Biala, the Social Worker responsible for following up the case. An abridged version of this story is also available in film, as part of the free DVD introducing the work of CCM.

"I do not know anything about my mother. My father told me that she left when I was still a baby. I lived in a small room with my father and brother. One day, after playing, I went home but found that my father and brother had left. I asked our neighbors, but they could not tell me where my father and brother went. I waited and waited for them to come home but no-one came back. I decided to leave. Sometimes I would go back to see if my father and brother were home, but I never saw them anymore." This is how Annie began her story.

She eventually left their room and rode on a jeep. She did not care where it was headed; she just wanted to run away. She found herself at a market. There she begged for money from passersby or from a bakery or food stall to have something to eat. She would also look in the garbage for food, especially in the garbage of a fast-food chain restaurant.

While scavenging for food she saw other children who were also looking in the garbage. "What are you looking for?" Annie asked them. "Are you also hungry and looking for food?" she continued to inquire, "No, we’re not. We gather tin cans or empty plastic bottles for our father to sell and buy food" was a child’s reply. "Can I come with you?" Annie asked, and so she went with them collecting recyclable garbage. She stayed with the family of her new friends until they decided to go back to the province. They could not take Annie with them, so she had to stay and live on her own again. Sometimes she joined other street children, but most of the time she was all by herself. She slept in the market, under the stalls, when all the people and vendors had gone home.

One late evening a man approached her "Do you have parents?" the man asked Annie. "None sir." she said. "Then come with me." Longing for someone to care for her, she agreed to go with the bald man. They went inside the market to a small stock room and there the man raped her. In the morning the bald man left the stock room and worked as a scavenger. Before he left, he made sure that no one would know that Annie was there. He tied her hands, and feet, and put a handkerchief around her mouth. Sometimes when he did not want to work he took Annie out of the stock room and let her beg, or made her steal. While she went around begging the bald man followed her from a distance, watching her closely to make sure she would not run away from him. In the evening they would go back to the stock room.

One morning, when Annie was in her usual tied position, she heard someone trying to break into the stock room where she was. Annie with bated breath watched and waited to see what would happen. A man was able to find his way inside. She hoped that this man would help her escape, but to her utter anguish this man also raped her. However he left the stock room door open, so Annie was able to escape. She ran and ran as fast as she could. She ran away from the market place, making sure that the bald man would not find her again.

Annie was now on her own, wandering, feeling tired and lonely, but relieved. She was now free from the bald man. She did not sleep in a room that could keep her from the cold of the night anymore. She had to sleep on the sidewalk, but she slept peacefully. When she woke up, she felt her stomach grumbling, and so Annie went back  to begging from passersby, only this time the money that she earned in begging was only for herself. A couple noticed her and asked her the question as she had been asked before—"do you have parents?" "None ma’am, none sir" once again was her answer. "Would you like to come with us?" Still longing for someone to care for her, she once again trusted strangers and agreed to go with them.

They made her wake up early in the morning to sell bread to the neighbors. She thought to herself, "It is fine with me to sell bread every morning rather than staying with the bald man". During her stay with the couple she was raped by the husband. She still stayed with the couple. Every morning a certain pastor always bought bread from her. She described him as very kind. After selling all the bread Annie would go back to the pastor’s house and play with the pastor’s children. She felt happy every time she was in the pastor’s home because everybody was very kind to her. "Can I stay here with you and your family?" Annie asked the pastor. The pastor willingly welcomed her to his family.

As time went by she developed a relationship with her new found family and she told them about her experience with the bald man and confessed that she was sexually abused. Immediately, the pastor brought Annie to the Department of Social Welfare (DSWD). They filed the case with the court and an arrest warrant was issued for the bald man at once. Annie accompanied the police and pointed out the bald man to them. The DSWD then placed Annie at CCM so that she would be properly cared for.

Annie was 10 years old when she came to CCM. She is very happy to be in CCM, although at times she misses the pastor and his family. She is happy that there are people who are taking care of her. She is happy that although she was not sent to school for the first year that she was in CCM (because of fear that her other perpetrators would find her), she thought that the tutorial was like school except it was just based at home. She was so happy when the tutor patiently taught her how to read. In Emmaus, the home where she lives, she was helped by the housemothers in memorizing the sounds of the alphabet. Most of all, she is happy that she is taught about the Lord Jesus Christ. She remembered so well when she first came that Angelyn, one of the children who had been staying at CCM for a long time, told her, "You can pray to God and He will be there to help you". Annie was smiling while she was relating this. Since then she has often been seen praying on her bed. There was a time when she was caught stealing a candy from the refrigerator and she was scolded. In the evening she was seen praying and weeping in her bed and was overheard saying "Lord please forgive me for stealing the candy and Lord help me change this bad habit."

From details given by Annie we were able to obtain a birth certificate for her (an important requirement for school enrollment). The municipality where she was born was contacted to trace her parents. A month later a woman appeared claiming to be her mother. The worker happily told Annie "Your mother is here and she wants to see you!" The worker thought that Annie would be happy to see her mother for the first time. "Oh please, do not give me back to her" came the unexpected reply. "You told me before that you knew nothing about your mother, so I thought that you would be excited". "I told you lies" she confessed. "It is not true that my mother left and my father did not really abandon me. It was I who left the house because my mother often scolded me. Every time I came home my mother would ask me to read and if I was not able to do what she asked of me, she would beat me. She did that every day". She said that she was often beaten by her mother and her aunt for even the slightest mistake she made. Whenever her uncle got drunk she was asked to wash his feet, and if she refused she would again be mercilessly beaten. Annie often tried to run away but to her dismay she was always found and brought back to the house. She says that she could not call it a home. One day she found a chance to escape again and this time she rode on a jeepney and went to a place where no one would recognize her and bring her back to her mother. "I was afraid that you would take me back home if I told you the truth. That is why I lied", she said.

"I promise not to give you back to your mother, but we have to see this woman". She agreed, but continually pleaded not to be given back to her. When we arrived we saw two women. I asked her, "Do you recognize any of those women?" - she shook her head. "I don’t know them." I was confused because Annie did not recognize them and neither did the women recognize Annie. The woman who claimed to be Annie’s mother had a birth certificate with her and a picture of Annie when she was 4 months old. "I am the mother of Annie," the woman said. I asked why she did not recognize Annie and that Annie did not also recognize her. "She was only 4 months old when I separated from her father. He had an accident that resulted in his being laid off from work. I insisted that I should work but he got mad. We often quarreled over this matter which later resulted in our separation. He took Annie with him without my knowledge. I tried to take her back but the relatives of her father interfered and even punched me in the face. Since then I have never been back to their place. Her father re-married and that is the woman whom she thought was her mother". We believed this story.

At present Annie is still staying at CCM. Soon a Social Worker will take her to visit her mother in order for them to begin to try and develop a close bond, with a view for possible future reconciliation.