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That last kiss and embrace...

My CCM social worker received a text asking that we go and see my mum because she was very ill. When my sister and I arrived to where my mum was, she can no longer speak. We stayed with her a while, then she kissed me and gave me her last embrace. Then she gave up her breath and died while we were still there. 

After the funeral we went back to CCM homes. I couldn't stop thinking of my mum, the last kiss, the last embrace, but there was more… I started to think more deeply about death, and started asking myself where will I go after death?

I am Charlene Mancilla 14 years old, and will be 15 this December 29. I came from a very poor family in Pasay. My parents separated when I was still a baby. For as long as I can remember my mum has always been confined to a wheelchair. Because my mum and family were unable to look after me I was brought to CCM, when I was only about 4 years old.

It has been 10 years that I have been staying here in CCM. In the CCM homes I was a problem to the housemothers, so much so that I think they almost gave up on me. I was stubborn, quarrelsome and I often stole things. 

It was in CCM where I first heard about Jesus. We have nightly devotions and we go to church every Sunday to hear more gospel teaching in Sunday school and preaching from the pulpit. But I did not see the importance of spiritual things before. I was not very interested in the things I heard. I did not have patience in most things especially in listening to the Word of God. I was also said to have ADHD, or Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, according to the doctors.  

God is good, CCM run a camp (Teens Fellowship) each year. At camp I heard about the power of the cross. The preacher taught us from Romans 1:20-21. He told us the truth that we do not have the right to become children of God because we are sinners and that the rightful place for us is in hell. That time I started to think that I am certainly going to hell because of the sins that I have committed before God. After the preaching I went to find a quiet place to pray and ask God for His forgiveness. I felt the presence of God and I thanked Him. 

By the grace of God I am here giving my testimony and will be baptised and become a member of the church. And I know that even now I still have mistakes, weaknesses and always stumbles. It is not easy to be a follower of God, the pressure to follow the ways of the world is too strong. But I know that God is changing me every day. Thank you for your prayers I know that the grace of God is sufficient and I have His promises. He will never leave me nor forsake me. I ask for your prayers and support in my Christian life. 

CCM events have been an important part of many children's testimonies. Could you sponsor a camp, seminar, or other event this year?